Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Cobalt Blue.
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Labels: moss thinspo
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Fuckeroo.
Today was and will continue to be a fail day.
Maybe I should learn to shut the fuck up and actually do things, lest I keep embarrassing myself like that. Everytime I try to convince myself that I don't care anymore about the way I eat or how much I weigh and all these other "superficial" things, my inner self rears its head and snarls at me for being this stupid little girl who has zero will power and why can't I just try fucking harder!?
Harharhar. So much for my stupid game plan. Fuck this.
Posted by lulu x at 3:26 PM 0 comments
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Reason Enough.
You know you're in big trouble when your "fat" clothes get tight and red, horrible marks wrap themselves around your waist, inner thighs, butt and midriff.
You know you're in big trouble when you can't will yourself do anymore inclined pull ups, sprints or sit ups without your entire mind, body and soul screaming in protest.
You know you're in big trouble when your stomach starts hurting after a week of binging but you still can't stop stuffing your face.
You know you're in big trouble when people around you start looking smaller, thinner and lovelier while you feel bigger, pudgier and uglier.
You know you're in big trouble when you can't sleep at night because all you can ever think about is food, weight, fat, clothes, failure and tears.
You know this is it, do or die.
Posted by lulu x at 9:27 PM 0 comments
Hello Again, Fear.
I just want to be left alone, angry and sad.
Posted by lulu x at 11:43 AM 0 comments